Warm

 

Some days I feel lonely and

I think about bottling up 

Moments that felt good.

A bottle of my mother's warmth,

One of my father's hugs,

Another of my brother's smiles

and an extra of my sister's laughs.


Some days I feel sad and 

I think about what awaits me

When I get through the day.

Grandparents that patiently

waits to give me a warm welcome.

Finally going on a trip with friends that

We have been planning for years now.


On days I feel happy

I give away my hugs and smiles

Like I have plenty to give,

I still believe the ones I gave away

Are the ones that come back

To find me in discomfort.

Afterall we are just beings

Basking in the warmth of hope



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