Day 16 - Stillness

 I find you in the stillness I experience, 

A coffee after a tiring day, 

A heart-felt conversation with a friend, 

A cigarette outside when the party's inside, 

A comfortable space to zone out, 

A feeling of not being judged in good company, 

A walk alone in the woods, 

A slight caress from your calloused hands. 

I desire you more when I know I can't 

Explain what I feel around your presence. 

So much emotions go unexplained, 

So many emotions being contemplated, 

But I find music in you, when all we share is silence, 

I find you among the stars, when my heart feels alone, 

I find you right next to me, when feelings take over, 

I find soothing familiarity in you, one that makes me 

believe you were made to be mine. 





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