Day 1 - Older

 I feel old and lost at the same time, 

I see people living their dreams

So sure of what they want. 

And I feel myself searching frantically

To find a meaning I have never pondered about before. 

I feel weak and strong at the same time, 

I find people trying to navigate themselves

So sure of what hurts and what shouldn't. 

And I find myself panicking because

Everything hurts even when they call me strong. 

I feel trapped and free at the same time, 

I watch people fly, sing, and dance

So sure of how to enjoy their freedom. 

And I find myself suffocated

Stepping out of a cage not knowing where to go. 

Here I stay, old and lost, weak and strong, 

Trapped and free, 

Searching and finding new revelations about myself, 

Knowing that no matter how uncomfortable it gets, 

I still get to write my own story.